I have a 14 month old daughter now. she is the light of my life. all that work i did back then was to have the privilege of being her mom. and here we are. the only real issue is that i am fatter then i have ever been. so now i have to make a change and start all over again. I started at 230 two weeks ago and now I'm at 223. tomorrow is weigh in day. i haven't been working out but i have been pretty active. I've been doing a lot of baby wearing and walking, but i know it isn't enough. i like to feel strong. i dont feel strong. i feel weak. i hate feeling weak. and i actually want another baby. we are taking a trip to MI at the end of July and Im hoping to lose enough before then to get my cycle back. this is why im starting to write again. i find that I am drawing strength from writing. kinda like a self psych up! i dont belong to my gym anymore, and that sucks because i loved it. it was hard to do with G around and she didnt tolerate the daycare center there. they would come get me about 10 minutes after i left her and i would have to leave. she is a momma's girl bigtime. gotta love her. my apartment complex has a gym, but its small and dirty and doesnt have air conditioning so its really hot and stinky in there. im thinking about ordering a work out on dvd and hopefully i can do some of that while G naps. also it might give Husband a chance to get a little work out as well. I wish i could go back to my gym, but its not in the cards right now. I would write more but G is insisting on nursies. also forgive the typos and misspellings. i didnt have time to edit properly!
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